Lately, my life has been feeling chaotic and out of control. I am constantly scrambling to maintain order in my home and failing miserably in the process. I jump from project to project not really finishing anything.
My perfectionism/Type A personality keeps me from even starting some jobs at all. I find myself stressed out almost constantly and it is even affecting my sleep. Add in the fact that I am prone to depression and deal with this as an underlying issue off and on, and it all equals a huge recipe for disaster.
What does this look like in my home? A lot of yelling at the kids, feeling frustrated with myself and ill-content in almost all areas of my life. Trust me, I am being honest here, and it is not pretty. Cluttered surfaces, rooms and schedules have a direct influence on my depression and mood. The messier it gets, the more my depression gets worse. The worse my depression gets, the messier it gets because I am not doing even basic maintenance. It is a vicious cycle that can quickly spiral out of control. Not good.
I am great at writing lists, creating routines and schedules and organizing. Implementing them is where it seems to all break down. Part of this is a motivational issue and part of it is feeling so overwhelmed about where to start that I become frozen.
Do you need me to come organize you? I would be able to do it with no problem. But my own stuff is filled with emotion and sentiment and value that somehow makes it all more than just stuff. I don’t want to keep doing things or holding on to things just because I always have. I am no longer willing to feel stuck by feelings of – “But, I paid so much money for that,” “Someone dear to me gave us that,” or “I might need that someday.” I am finally ready to only have things in my home that we truly use and love.
The only way to make progress is to start. Somewhere. Anywhere. I would love to snap my fingers and have my entire house spic and span and organized, but life doesn’t work that way. I know all too well it is an ongoing process. Enter project organize.
I plan to go through each area of my home and organize EVERYTHING. I don’t know how long it is going to take. (I have a 3 year old home with me all day that is like a little tornado.) But I plan to do a little bit every day. There is going to be a lot of selling things on Craigslist and donating. I am going to try to use what I have without buying more containers, bins and boxes. I am going to do my best to take pictures of the before, during and after to share with you.
My spaces may not be magazine worthy. They may not be perfect (gasp!). But, hopefully everyone in our family will be a little happier and more at peace. Perhaps with downsizing all of the things we have in this house, we will have more time for the truly important – each other. And maybe I won’t feel like we need to move to a bigger house. Because in reality I know that is not a real solution. We would just end up filling it with even more stuff!
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